2012

What a way to start my New Year!
I spent the weekend doing and Intensati workshop and some amazing fitness classes. Physically I feel fantastic.   I also jump started my morning pages practice.  Day 2 so far, but I truly enjoy it and don't feel the reluctance I did when I tried to do them previously...I was also not sober at that point and getting up early with a hangover to write in a journal was just beyond my grasp.

Between the classes and the journaling, I've come to a realization about letting go of some old (and I mean OLD) behaviors and habits. I realized that just because it was something I've always done, doesn't mean that it's something I need to keep doing, especially when I want to progress, continue to grow spiritually and evolve. Perhaps, before I didn't think it possible or even that I was worthy....but it is and I AM.

I'm excited for this clean slate feeling and it's clean because I don't have to bring my Santa's sack of old bullshit into today, I'm starting to understand 'will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it'.  Today I make a different choice, much like my early sobriety where I had to make a conscious choice not to drink that day, or even that moment.  I'm using the same tools to let go of the past, to say no, I don't have to be the way I was because, there is a better way.  I will choose that today.

I'm grateful for all the things that my sobriety has taught me so far and I SO look forward to this year. It's gonna be AMAZING.

Blessings to you!