Wednesday, November 30, 2011


I am grateful today for.

The ability to watch great acting and think its out of reach

A full nights sleep and sleeping in til 1030!

Feeling better today

Showing up for a job interview despite enormous amounts of irrational fear

For it going well and for letting go of the result

Tuesday, November 29, 2011


I am grateful today for:

Work flying by yesterday and going easy, sometimes the holidays gets a little nutso around here, so far, so good.

Actively practicing unconditional compassion with my co workers. It's a lot easier than jumping into the negativity pool

Alka-Seltzer Cold.  Hot Tea w/Honey - when I start a cold these are the things I reach for.

Emails, texts & calls from sober friends

A long good nights sleep and even sleeping in a bit in the morning

Monday, November 28, 2011


I am grateful today for:

Getting a good night's sleep and taking care of myself, I feel a cold comin on

A very fun rehearsal last night. It's been very interesting to be part of this reading and it's all sober people and watch them all through their process.

A book I started reading called 'Power of the Actor'. I'm fascinated by what it has illuminated for me professionally & personally and also how it correlates to sobriety & recovery

Getting up on time and getting to work on time this morning. It always feels good to do that. Everyone else does in this world,  what makes me so special! :)

Getting to a meeting at my home group tonight. It's been a while and I look forward to feeling at home

Sunday, November 27, 2011


I'm grateful for:

coming home to a delicious dinner last night,  chicken with a delicious tomato & capers sauce

a wonderful night/morning of sleep, it was needed

a quiet morning at home to work on my script, drink coffee and play around on spotify 

the Puppini sisters

rehearsal tonight! 

Saturday, November 26, 2011


I am grateful today for:

The continued mild fall weather we're having. I LOVE it.

For a quiet evening at home and watching two movies I've been meaning to watch, Limitless & Rabbit Hole (sadly I didn't really LOVE either of them)

That the intense and insane dream I had last night about using ecstasy was just that, a dream. I seemed so real even the scene where I started counting days again. So relieved that was a dream

For a slow easy day at work today

For this video:

Thursday, November 24, 2011


I am grateful today for:

Sleeping past 8 today it's he latest I've gotten up in a whole

A kick ass intensati class today full of love & gratitude

Christopher and his amazingness. I'm so very lucky

My family who always makes me laugh

Getting to spend the day with David and Andre an their family & friends

Wednesday, November 23, 2011


I am grateful today for

A fabulous meeting at my home group and seeing A get his 90 days

Catching up with my neighbor from childhood who was in town for the night

Getting up early & taking 30 60 90 with Chris

The wonderful day off ahead which includes seeing the new muppets movie!

My rain boots - they seriously rock

Tuesday, November 22, 2011


I am grateful today for:

The work day speeding by yesterday

Listening to the messages of the universe last night and going home after work

Phone conversations with my sister and my good friend Lindsay

Getting up early and getting to work early to make up some time from being late yesterday.  I never worried about making up time when I was hungover.  There's some progress :)

Coffee that helps with everything

The movie 'Micmacs', A cute little french film with a lot of heart and a stellar cast. While I'm at it, I'm grateful for Netflix that allows me to see things I normally wouldn't AND to my boss who reccomends these off beat things to me and I've yet to be disappointed.

Monday, November 21, 2011


I am grateful today for:

a fantastic rehearsal last night, I had a lot of fun and even got assigned another part which is another opportunity to try something new & different. Side note: I've doing this very informal reading with a bunch of actors who I consider to be very successful some being on Broadway and some on TV. It's slightly intimidating but more so it's an opportunity to raise my game and rise to their level. It's nerve wracking & scary but I keep trying

getting home earlier than I thought and having time to watch an episode of "Alias" with Chris. I LOVE this show and love watching it with someone who's experiencing for the first time

For getting up early today and keeping my commitment to qualify at a 7:30am meeting. I think in the almost 5 years I've been sober I can count the amount of morning meetings I've been to on one hand. It's a wonderful way to start the day

For the people at that meeting sharing honestly and openly. It was a beautiful meeting and really set my day in a good (orderly) direction :)

For the moments of grace that I expereince both before and after getting sober. They are the reason for all the good in my life, my trick now is to get out of my own way enough to let them happen. I'm never disappointed when Grace steps in

Sunday, November 20, 2011


I'm grateful for:

Coffee with my friend Michael. A lovely time

Getting to spend time with my niece Samantha she's the cutest

A beautiful gorgeous day today

30 60 90 and intensati classes today

Finally finishing breaking bad episode 1

A chill night and rehearsal

Saturday, November 19, 2011


am grateful today

For this gorgeous weather!

For an amazing intensati class this morning. It was beautiful to watch my friend Lindsay teach from her heart

For breakfast & catching up with my friend John

For connecting with my bestie Paul who lives on the west coast . I miss him greatly

For a feeling of contentment and peace this morning, what a gift!

Friday, November 18, 2011


I'm grateful this morning for:

reluctantly deciding not to go to class this morning at 6:30a. I need the sleep and my shins needed a day off to recover

winning a contest at Duane Reade last night where our entire purchase was free

Receiving an email from someone asking about meetings and coming into the program. It's nice to know that I'm someone people can ask that of

Getting to see 'On a Clear Day You Can See Forever' last night, it was a quirky, off beat show that I walked away loving

A fun dinner with friends tonight, I've been looking forward to it all week!

Thursday, November 17, 2011


I am grateful today for: 

another day off

getting to spend a quality evening with our friends Darbi & Kelvin

American Horror Story

morning coffee with Christopher 

Morning Affirmations with John-Andrew

Wednesday, November 16, 2011


I'm grateful today 

I got a bonus intensati class last night

For a quiet night at home sometimes short term isolation is good for me

A fantastic night of sleep

Rising early for a 30 60 90 class

Having the day off today to do whatever!

Tuesday, November 15, 2011


I'm grateful today for:

The woman who sneezed as she cut in front of me this morning leaving the subway forcing me to say BLESS YOU out of instinct instead of something else. My higher power has a fantastic sense of humor

Coming home last night to a homemade pot of Tortilla Soup, Chris truly is one of a kind and makes some AWESOME soup

Going to a meeting last night with my friend Scott. It's a meeting a I normally avoid for reasons that make no sense really. It was a fantastic meeting, kept it extremely green for me

That today is my 'Friday' - I have the next two days off!!

The soundtrack to 'The Book of Mormon'. It's hilariously wrong in a million ways

Morning affirmations.

Have a great day!!

Monday, November 14, 2011

Better late than never

I'm grateful for

A FABULOUS night's sleep, I don't know why sleep has become so important to me but it's prob because I don't usually get a lot of it

Having a fantastic time at our table read thru last night. I had a lot of fear which mostly came from being less than prepared. At least I've got til next Sunday to work on it

For getting to a meeting tonight and possible fellowship afterwards

For scarf weather, I love it

Hope you have a great day!

Sunday, November 13, 2011


I'm grateful today for:

the many adventures in life I get to have every day

Getting up & getting to 30/60/90 today, it was hard but a had a great moment in the middle of class where I was like - YES! I'm doing this! Which was a far cry from where my head was previous to class

That I got to talk to a new comer today, we check in with each other every other day or so, he has a sponsor, but it's nice to be accountable to someone else in program too

Realizing today I'm running low on patience and that's all it is. I don't have to hate the world for it

The opportunity to do a reading of a play. we start rehearsal tonight and I'm excited about it, It's kook-a-licious

That I and my close friends continue to stay sober one day at a time

Saturday, November 12, 2011


Good Morning!!

I am grateful today for:
A wonderful night's sleep

Coffee, Coffee and more coffee

Pushing through fear & ambivilance today to train someone at my job

Having a weekend full of work and even though it might seem like a pain in the ass, I'm grateful to be working.

Waking up sober today & loving it

Friday, November 11, 2011


I am grateful today for

Getting my butt outta bed at 515am and getting to Intensati

A nice easeful breakfast with Chris afterwards

Working hard all day, I like being a hard worker

A dinner invite from my boss and even though I couldn't go, it was a very nice gesture

The express bus

Being part of my friends housewarming & bday celebration in a bar and not feeling a desire to drink

Laying my head down sober

Enjoy your weekend !

Thursday, November 10, 2011


I'm grateful today
For the chance to traipse around NY yesterday snapping all kinds of pics and posting them on instagram

Getting to see my dear friend Eva and her baby Samma who is growing up so fast

For cleaning house yesterday, it was so nice to wake up to

For spending quality time with Chris all day yesterday

For sobriety, that it gives me the chance to enjoy my life today

Wednesday, November 9, 2011


m grateful today for:

Having coffee with a friend i hadn't seen in a while last night and talking to my almost after noting how much we've both changed.

Getting my ass outta bed this morning and getting to 30 60 90 class, that was a humble experience after a month off

Quality time with Buddy the pug

The gorgeousness of this day here in NY, I'm seeing a lot of beauty today

Sobriety, its nothing I ever imagined and means the world to me

Tuesday, November 8, 2011


I'm grateful this morning for:

The beautiful weather

The chance to listen to new works of theatre being read & watch friends do what they love

Depositing checks FROM MY PHONE!! WHAT

The pratice of gratitude

The fact that being sober helps me face each day in an immediately better place than the days before I was sober. 

Monday, November 7, 2011


I'm grateful today for:
practicing gratitude and taking an action regardless of my feelings
the gorgeous weather
dinner parties with friends
Carrie Underwood, Joni Mitchell  & Adele,  my muses

Crying. I spent so many years so pent up and would never let myself cry. It's a hard habit to break but easier since I'm not using alcohol to further my disconnection.  I'm glad I can slowly let that happen know when it needs to

Saturday, November 5, 2011


I am grateful today for: 

the chance to take a leadership role at work last night and just doing it without thought.  I mark that as progress in sobriety, as I didnt' immediately jump into fear and self doubt 

having fun while working 

the amazing team of guys I had worked with last night,  they made it so easy 

my coffee this morning 

Getting the opportunity to do service at the Bill W Dinner tonight - it's the Oscar's of New York AA, and I only say that because it's black tie :)

Friday, November 4, 2011


I'm grateful today for:

Restraint of pen, tongue & keyboard here at work yesterday, I still marvel sometimes at how people can be SO well just so, the beauty is I can just be.

Getting my ass back to Intensati class last night, it felt great & I'm the best kinda sore today

Take Out Thai Food & American Horror Story on Hulu

Having the courage to keep talking with Chris about something that needs to resolve itself and not choosing to just sweep it under the rug.

Practicing rigorous honesty

2 jobs today and being a worker among workers at both.

And I'm borrowing this from

Thursday, November 3, 2011


I am grateful today for

A fantastic meeting on the serentity prayer as a tool.  To me it's all about acceptance

Hugs from my home group folk

A wonderful belated birthday/anniversary dinner with Christopher

An inmproptu visit with my friends Justin & Joe

Being able to have uneasy discussions, doing my best to stay in them and not hide.

Wednesday, November 2, 2011


Good Morning!

I am grateful today for:

trying something new yesterday which was eating vegan.  It was easier than I thought but by no means is it something I think I could commit to...I like cheese WAY too much

Connecting with old friends

A full day of work between two jobs from 9am until 2am and back at it today. I thought to myself this morning, man this would be difficult if I was hungover to boot, being just plain tired ain't so bad.

Getting to my home group tonight

The opportunity to be of service this weekend at the Bill W Dinner Dance.

Wishing you all the best!

Tuesday, November 1, 2011


I am grateful today for:

Being back in the place I call home

My brother and his family for hosting us for a fantastic birthday & Halloween weekend

Work and lots of it

AA for introducing a new way of living.

Celebrating another birthday sober.