I sat in a great meeting last night where the topic was gratitude.
A word I used to cringe at. Thankfully (pun intended), I started writing gratitude lists at the end of every day, and even sometimes on this blog when I can feel my perspective get skewed.
What I realized last night while listening to everyone was that gratitude as a tool is a perpsective shifter. Much like when I first came into this program and my perspective was shifted. It shifted from I HAVE to drink, to I don't HAVE to drink. That opened an iota of possibility that maybe other ideas & pre-concieved notions I had may also one day reverse themselves....sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly.
Gratitude is my way to get there. If I suscribe to the belief that what I talk about I get, then if I focus on the good in my life I will invite MORE good. The opposite is true. I spent years YEARS focused on all the things I wasn't getting, all the life that was going on around me that I couldn't connect to and thinking about that next drink. I don't HAVE to do that today, it's a choice.
And while a lot of external things are fantastic for me, it's the insides that changed that made that possible. The only way to keep it is to keep my insides in check, a fit spiritual condition they call it. I'm grateful to strive for that today.
A part of my Dad's spirit - is a part of mine.
9 months ago