I think it's the change of season, or maybe just where I am but the last two days, I've gotten out of bed on time, showered and then laid back down and end up late for work, it's feels deep down like a familiar hang over pattern even though I am clearly and thankfully not.
I read recently one of my sober friends has started saying the serenity prayer anytime he starts to feel judgemental as he goes through his day. I tried this experiment last night on my way home....and it became a running loop of the serenity prayer, guess I need to work on that!
I was sitting in an Intensati class on Sunday and the instructor had asked us what we wanted and not be afraid to dream too big. My first thoughts were: Broadway, then came Weddidng, then came the thought that I can only pick one, one dream right now then came the most beautiful thought- I can have it all.
Allowing myself that has been an awakening. The other thing I realized is that I have to be willing to do the work, that is always my biggest detractor. I'm glad that getting and staying sober has taught me about action & work and that through those anything, I mean ANYTHING can change if I allow it to.
The only proof I need is that I'm sober today and who'd have thought that could ever change.
A part of my Dad's spirit - is a part of mine.
4 months ago