I've read a lot of posts lately with similar themes. Light. Dark.
One of my favorite lyrics of all time is: "If I show you the darkness I hold inside, will you bring me to light?"
It is from a song called 'Bring Me to Light' from the musical 'Violet' by Jeannine Tesori & Brian Crawley.
I was in the middle of a run of this show when I hit bottom and started to get sober. I was always touched by that lyric. I was convinced that no one had ever been to the dark places I had been physically, mentally or spiritually. I started this program and very slowly began to trust not only people but my higher power too. Then I started to slowly peel away the layers & layers of coverage around my own little light, letting it eek out in small ways and the subsquently trusting a bit more.
What's amazing to me is still today I can relate to that quote. I find it easy to hide myself from this world and the people in it, easy because it's what I've done for years. When I feel myself go there I try to remember Marianne Williamson's quote about light:
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
