Ever have one of THOSE days. The kind where you just can't seem to be present in your own skin even though with all your own might - that's what you want? So then you try to force it, push it, will it to happen?
That's where I've been lately for the last week or so until today. Looking at it now though, I think it's purely a product of over-committing myself and stretching myself WAY too thin...and in the process losing myself within the insanity that is my schedule lately. It's stressful - but I find I don't get the time to TRULY ENJOY the things I'm doing.
It's a lesson I'm learning. I don't have to please everybody - one of my PRIME character defects is being a people pleaser. It's a hard one to let go of too. I struggle to find the balance between being of service to people and being a people pleaser. Perhaps it all comes down to intention.
Anyway - I'm looking forward to the next 4 days of being away from the city and out at the beach. A re-charge for my serenity I'm sure.
I'm grateful today for many things:
The opportunity to feel a part of in this life lately.
Looking forward to a beautiful weekend
That people depend on and trust me
For progress in areas of my life that were maybe lacking years ago: spirituality, relating to others, listening
For my friends Steven & John-Andrew - they inspire me
For the thought in my head today (via Marianne Williamson and others) that if I let my light shine it allows others to do the same
For the strangers on the NY streets today who returned my smiles
A reminder: (Thanks Tabitha)
Let it shine!!
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