I've never felt like this

I was ready to explode at someone last night.

It's rare that I get angsty like that and truly I am not even sure what to trace it to. I spent a little too much time listenting to the vampire in my head telling me:

'I was a fraud' and 'who do you think you're kidding?'

I think mostly it has to do with my laurel resting as of late. THAT, and the fact that I am SO much more comfortable being stuck behind the glass wall which encapsulates me.

here's to progress

Just for today

I wish I could not care SO much, or try to read so much into what other people are thinking about me, cause the truth is it just doesn't matter.

In other news: I am four movies away from having seen all that have been nominated for the Oscars. Left to see are:

Frozen River
The Changeling
Frost/Nixon
The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

I have NO desire to see the last two, but for the sake of completeness, I shall.

Starting off right

Granted, it's almost the end of January but one of my resolutions was to volunteer once a month.

Last night I attended the orientation to become a volunteer for the NYCares organization. I had a blast on NYcares day helping paint a school in the Bronx last fall. I really like their idea of service and the variety of different projects that they have to offer.

I was also blown away by the amount of people there to sign up, it helps me be less cynical.
Service really is so key - getting out of myself and into helping others does wonders for my state of mind.

In other news, I had a looooong conversation with a couple of program friends, including my sponsor and came to this conclusion as something to strive for:

Have fun and try to see things a little more grey and not so black & white.

Here's to progress!

Starting A New

I'm not so sure what to say, I'm happy to have the ability to blog again (work previously blocked my access to another blog) and really what better way to spend the work day? :)

I'll be updating more but wanted to at least make a start.