Thursday, December 31, 2009

Happy New Year!

I keep hearing 'I can't WAIT for this year to be over'!

Looking back, I don't really think that 2009 was all that bad. In fact when I reflect on the growth and good things that have come into my life over the past year, it was pretty damn good.

I'd like to leave some gratitude for: the rooms and people of Alcoholics Anonymous, Working part time, pursuing my dream step by step, being supported financially & creatively through my own contributions, for trusting more, for Fire Island, relationships big and small and being less afraid of them, for taking myself and life less seriously, the 'Hurricane', for 30 damn amazing years on this earth, sometimes seeing the bigger picture, SATI, daily affirmations & gratitude lists, fellowship in program, at work and in life. LOVE and being able to give and receive it freely. for my family. the lessons about the cycle of life & death. for imperfections and the beauty that they are. for a God I understand as all love, all encompassing and big enough to handle anything I've got. and finally for Christopher who is easily turning about to be the love of my life.

If I can only go up from here I cannot WAIT to see what 2010 has in store!

Wednesday, December 9, 2009


Lately I've been a dictionary fanatic. Mostly on words, I've always 'known' the meaning of but it occurs to me to look them up, solidify it so there's no questions or vagueness.

I've done this recently with words like: faith, trust, love, calibrate, and authentic

I heard a qualification last night in which the giver mentioned how great a gift it is that we can continue to know ourselves and really be our own authentic self.

While I admit figuring out who that is is a work in progress, I decided to look up it's definition:

Authentic: –adjective
1. not false or copied; genuine; real:
2. having the origin supported by unquestionable evidence; authenticated; verified:
3. entitled to acceptance or belief because of agreement with known facts or experience; reliable; trustworthy
4. Law. executed with all due formalities
5. Music. a. (of a church mode) having a range extending from the final to the octave above. Compare plagal.
b. (of a cadence) consisting of a dominant harmony followed by a tonic.

When I honor who I truly am, I honor that which created me on this earth. I hope every day to be authentic to the person I'm destined to be and already am.